Finding the real me

I have been on this incredible journey and I am really loving this stage in my life. I just had my last and final baby 9 months ago. My hubby and I decided we wanted three kids and we wanted them close in age so they could be at similar stages as they grow up. Aside from one miscarriage we got just what we asked for and, although some days are hard, I don't regret it for one second. I have known too many people that have lost or never had their dream of the perfect family and I feel one way to pay my respects is to not take for granted what I have been given.

Part of the fun I am having these days is finding my own style of clothing. I know it sounds strange for a 30-some year old to still be finding herself but there is a reason. Growing up I was a bit more of a tom-boy. The style when I was in high school was baggy pants and baggy shirts... in other words, there was NO style! By the time I was 20 I got into the hair biz and I was pretty much thrown into the fashion industry without a paddle. For some reason I was good at hair fashion but no good at the rest. I actually asked my coworker what a stiletto was....... ya, it was that bad! And even though I spent 10 years working at a very prestige salon in downtown Calgary I still didn't really find a style that was.... well, me. Part of that was due to the fact that I didn't really explore with different styles as much as I wanted to. I was dating a guy who was not real supportive and to avoid ridicule I played it safe with my wardrobe. Not to say that it was all his fault. It was partly my own for not standing my ground and loving myself enough to wear what made ME feel beautiful.

So, fast forward a few years and now I am married to the most wonderful man who loves me no matter what size I am or what I have on. However, now my excuse for a lack of style is the fact that I have been pregnant three times since our wedding 5 years ago. I have been all sizes in all seasons and that can get a bit costly so I wasn't real choosy.

But now!!!! I am all done. I have been exercising to loose those extra pounds. And it feels so good knowing I am going to stay this way. And that what ever I buy is going to still fit me in 9 months from now! So I am on a hunt. A hunt to find my true style. I plan to take risks and wear something crazy as long as I feel great in it!

My first buy from my favorite store Guess. Their clothing is like rocker meets chic which I LOVE.

This is not just a mission to revamp my wardrobe but it also signifies the revamping I have been doing in my mental and spiritually life over the past 5 years. I have been shedding off a lot of my insecurities and learning to love myself and except that I am 100% loved by my Creator!!

So the moral of this post is be bold. Be beautiful. And love who God made you to be because he dose not make mistakes.



My beautiful kids!